Thursday, December 30, 2010

MY dream

I have had my bachelor's degree for over a year now but I STILL have these awful dreams where I get a call from MSSU and they say that I failed a class or forgot to take a class and so I have to go back to school and start all over again.  It really bothers me! So much that when I wake up the next morning I have to remind myself that I already graduated, they wouldn't have let me graduate had I not met all the requirements and they certainly would not have given me the degree if I didn't earn it.  I don't know why I have this dream over and over.  I must just be a gigantic dork! : )
Does anybody else ever have weird dreams like that? I don't know if it's because it seemed like it took me forever to graduate or what? It took me 6 years because after I had Addie, I dropped down to part time and then after I had Mia, I took a year off.  Which later turned out to be stupid because when I went to re-enroll I discovered I only had to take 3 classes before graduating (biology, fundamentals of physical science and an elective!).  I took fundamentals of physical science and sociology of film summer 2009 and then took biology in the fall and was done. 
But anyway, I have been meaning to write down this strange dream of mine for some time now because I think it is so weird that I have it so often.  Sometimes it's a misc class I have to retake but mostly it's a math class that I have failed.  Maybe because I only took one math class at Avila (a refresher math course since I didn't have to take math my senior year of high school) and it transferred over as being a higher level class so I never had to take any more math and I feel guilty about it? Or maybe it's the fact that the spring semester before I had Mia I dropped one of my independents studies classes after turning in only 2 papers and the school made the mistake of dropping my OTHER independent studies class and once I had that fixed I realized that both professors turned in a grade for me, even for the class I really did mean to drop which made me feel REALLY guilty? Who knows?!? (By the way, I did go and talk to the professor who turned in a grade for me even though I dropped his class and he said as long as I didn't tell, he wasn't going to tell! LOL In my defense, I did read all the assigned material I swear!)
I bet that is it more than anything, I just have a guilty conscience and it's making me have bad dreams.  Maybe now that I have admitted this, the dreams will stop!
Sorry if this is the most boring post from me ever!
I promise my next post will be more interesting (and by more interesting, I mean about my beautiful babies instead of my guilty heart!)!

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